Cliffhanger~

Once upon a time, I've been in a middle of an unknown and unclear but exceptional wondrous feeling. 

It all started when I fall for an ideal guy. One of my closest guy friend and probably a real existing ideal guy for everyone. He displays a real genuine and sincere character. He has this amazing effect of making me smile just by simply looking at him. He always listens to my senseless stories and sudden burst out. He’s kind enough to buy my corny jokes. He’s my confidence booster as well. And to top these, he’s a humble and efficient man of God.

Basically, we’ve been very good friends. I share him my thoughts, he gave me assurance and comfort. We’ve shared each other’s failures and triumphs. We give each other endless advices and we’ve found confidence in one another.

And so I never expected that one day, a feeling that seems like been buried in the deepest part of my heart had been awaken. I didn’t even realize it was there. Too late before I even accepted it. I suddenly fall for him in every single way I can imagine. 

A love story that’s been unfolds. Yes. It’s a story that only the two of us can relive. There will always be a version of his, and a version of mine. And what I’m writing now is my side. My own knowledge of our love story. For awhile I felt t a sense of security and contentment. Every moment with him is a very wonderful memory. At that short while, all I’ve known is happiness. Happiness that I truly found in him.

But we’ve been sidetracked by this temporary happiness. Suddenly, everything was unclear, every memory seems blurred. The next moment, we were miles apart. I don’t know what happen to us. He suddenly acts like everything didn’t really happen. Like a wonderful dream had finally come to an end.

Until now, I can’t find simple words to explain our supposedly love story… and until now, I’ve been imprisoned with that memories. I found myself reliving those and wondering what might happen the other way around. If only I had known that sooner it will end, I would simply pray for the clock to stop ticking. I would wished that at that moments... time would stop. If only I knew...

I don’t know to end this. I’m still hoping that sooner, this cliffhanger love story would finally have its ending. It’s the only way I can move forward. I’m still praying that maybe, just maybe, it would not be just once upon a time.