For the guy who give a twist in my story..

Hurt. Confuse. Broken, but still hoping…

These were my current situation the moment our paths crossed. And I’m so honest that I didn’t even try to hide it from you. You even listen intently and answer my never-ending questions. At that simple conversation about my current situation, we’ve clicked. <3

Honestly, I didn’t expect for you to move forward in my life, I didn’t even realize you were there, trying to console me. Trying to make me happy and forget my damn love life. And it worked, it really worked.

The first time, you were just my listener... at this point of time, we’ve been practically together. I admired how you assured me and make me feel good. I admire your patience and your determination. I honestly feel that I’m not deserving of your love. When I feel like giving up, you were there trying to hold me. And when I’m falling, you’d just perfectly catch me.

And the rest is history! I can’t explain how happy am I to find you. I know I’ve been unfair... I’ve been reckless, insensitive and I’ve been so hard to understand. But you just accepted me, as is. Sorry for my imperfections, baby. Sorry for not being a good girl... friend I supposed to be.

And I would grab this opportunity, to express my gratitude for the unconditional love you gave me. Even though I weren’t so sure, you still give me the live I know I don’t deserve. Thank you for always being there.

Thank you for giving me reasons to love all over again and to start over. I thank and glorify God for His wonderful blessing he generously gave me... YOU.

 I don’t know what will happen to us... but one thing I’m so sure and I’ve been praying about. I will give you the love you deserve :”) I will not give up on us as well. I love you dear J Thank you for being a part of my life.

PS~

Let’s count the days, weeks, months, years... lifetime

Cause that’s how long you and I, we’ll be together.♥

Cliffhanger~

Once upon a time, I've been in a middle of an unknown and unclear but exceptional wondrous feeling. 

It all started when I fall for an ideal guy. One of my closest guy friend and probably a real existing ideal guy for everyone. He displays a real genuine and sincere character. He has this amazing effect of making me smile just by simply looking at him. He always listens to my senseless stories and sudden burst out. He’s kind enough to buy my corny jokes. He’s my confidence booster as well. And to top these, he’s a humble and efficient man of God.

Basically, we’ve been very good friends. I share him my thoughts, he gave me assurance and comfort. We’ve shared each other’s failures and triumphs. We give each other endless advices and we’ve found confidence in one another.

And so I never expected that one day, a feeling that seems like been buried in the deepest part of my heart had been awaken. I didn’t even realize it was there. Too late before I even accepted it. I suddenly fall for him in every single way I can imagine. 

A love story that’s been unfolds. Yes. It’s a story that only the two of us can relive. There will always be a version of his, and a version of mine. And what I’m writing now is my side. My own knowledge of our love story. For awhile I felt t a sense of security and contentment. Every moment with him is a very wonderful memory. At that short while, all I’ve known is happiness. Happiness that I truly found in him.

But we’ve been sidetracked by this temporary happiness. Suddenly, everything was unclear, every memory seems blurred. The next moment, we were miles apart. I don’t know what happen to us. He suddenly acts like everything didn’t really happen. Like a wonderful dream had finally come to an end.

Until now, I can’t find simple words to explain our supposedly love story… and until now, I’ve been imprisoned with that memories. I found myself reliving those and wondering what might happen the other way around. If only I had known that sooner it will end, I would simply pray for the clock to stop ticking. I would wished that at that moments... time would stop. If only I knew...

I don’t know to end this. I’m still hoping that sooner, this cliffhanger love story would finally have its ending. It’s the only way I can move forward. I’m still praying that maybe, just maybe, it would not be just once upon a time.