“ Sometimes, giving up is the best solution. Its not actually quitting but its accepting the fact that what's not meant will never be. Fighting for it would just complicate the situation.It may hurt. It may sting a little. But after awhile, you'll realize that more pain could have been felt if pushed through.”
It's hard to let go of something, when all your life, it's been the source of your learning and happiness. Especially, when the reasons are hard to understand. It hurts. People may blame you. They may judge you. But what hurts even more is the fact that no matter how you try to make them understand, its just you who can fully realize the pressure you undergone, the risk to take a chance, and the pain to let it go.
This time I surrender. The institution, the friends, the lessons. I am no longer committed. And that's painful. I had learned a lot through this organization. Lessons that I do not find in any of my academics subject. I'm happy in serving the students and seeking the truth. It makes me worthy. But there are some things that I had done, things that I cannot changed anymore. And I was to blame.
Furthermore, if its not meant to be, then its not. But its just a matter of adjusting to a new course of living. And living in this stage is complicated. It's really hard fro me to handle a commitment. I'm no mature, I;m just a girl easy to fall and get down. And this decision is hard. I need to make a step and be firm.
“ Goodbye for now but not forever.”
